Tough Day

Ok so today was a really hard today and I could not really figure out why for a long time. No bad news came, no well check, no photo so why was I so down. My nephew turned 3 on Monday and the kids and I told him for a present we would take him to lunch and to a movie. We picked him up, went to McDonalds, came home, grabbed Jake's gear so we could squeeze in an afternoon stick and puck and headed to a 1:10 movie. Saw "The Lorax" which was an excellent movie .. all the kids loved it! We then went to the rink where after a couple of false alarm trips to the restroom (Parkers pottytraining), I managed to get Jake in his gear, the other 2 snacks and finally stopped for a moment to rest before I had to resume chasing him around the rink.  I found myself the entire time feeling very sad and it finally occurred to me .. I was sad because I wish I was doing all of this craziness with Kate. I'm to the point where I would take all the craziness or even hard times, just to have her home and begin our life together. I have planned, read books, blogs, analyzed every aspect of her coming home and am so over it at this point. I'm ready already!!